GT came about 930 pm to discuss abt the fund raising event for the upcoming xmas. we are raising funds for one of the homes. well what can i say abt her. she's loud and full of ideas. but what is holding me back is that MK is related to her and MK has told me quite a bit of her. i know it's bad for me but i cant help thinking abt her at the back of my mind.

i am really not fully committed to this fund raising thing cos of some irritating com members. i don't think i shld add stress to myself at this point of time.

but seriously, not to say i'm pessismistic, i dont think the event will be a great success at the rate we are going. there is too little time to get things in order. in other words, i dont really care. i just do my part. i will not go out on a limb.

i'm just thinking that since i'm on mc and so accustomed to not working, i dont really feel comfortable going back to employment. how la? my reserves are running low. i wish to buy quite a number of things. and FL is not that easy to do. may be that is what causing my insomnia.

i do miss MK a lot. i really love her kids. they just accept me for who am i without judgement.